"Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to the loneliness."
- Maya Angelou

     Hello all. It is Friday night and I am feeling extremely lonely. Judging by the fact I used to be a people person, it can be very hard to cope with the lack of people in my life. I guess that's why I have so much time for this blog. I really miss the old me sometimes. I wish I could do other things than sit in my room and be lonely. I wish a lot of things actually... I wish I was pretty, I wish someone had a crush on me, I wish I wasn't so sad all the time, I wish my life meant something, I wish someone could make the effort to understand me. None of those things will happen, unfortunately, but I can live with it. It's what we humans do. Keep trudging on, even when life is pushing you back. It's our whole species, really. Which is good because otherwise we'd have no instinct to survive.
     Sometimes I just kind of feel like time has stopped, however. When you're sitting in the darkness of your room and typing by the light of some Christmas lights on your ceiling time ceases to exist and there's only you and the keyboard. It's a good feeling, but it doesn't last long.

-Flaming